Mike Atkins
2009-09-04
Michael Atkins

Story

This is all about the feelings involved the moment you find out you've lost someone significant in your life. For me it felt like I was drowning in a raging sea during a storm.

Lyrics

Dark Overture/Hold My Breath If I could hold my breath forever And let the water carry me I'd let the river current Carry me out into the sea But as it is I think I'm drowning And I can't see the shore And I just can't believe That you won't be here anymore If I could swim forever Through crashing waves upon the sea I'd find a way to save you And bring you back with me But I'm barely treading water But I don't think I care I just can't believe You finally climbed the golden stairs You won't be here anymore And here I slowly drown You ascend on high While I am sinking down And I am forced to save the passengers Of this shipwreck you have bore And I can't believe you won't be here anymore Oh, slipping and sliding, slipping and sliding Down, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Michael Atkins
2009-10-31
Michael Atkins

Story

I wrote this song for my fathers funeral. He was a pilot, so the flight references in the song reflect the way I saw him all my young life. He was always somewhere else, even when he was in the same room with you. I never understood that. Later in life I would call to talk to him, and he would pass the phone to my mother after only two or three minutes into the conversation. Even though our relationship was weird, and sometimes strained, I would give anything for one of those three minute awkward phone conversations.

Lyrics

Well okay, I guess I’ll watch you fly away And I’ll stay here and hope you know your destination And later on I’ll think about the past we shared How you held me high when I thought you didn’t care How you watched me soar When I didn’t know that you were there And this lifetime I have spent Wondering who you are Where were you? (3 times) Where was I? Well alright I guess it’s time to catch your flight You always had a way of knowing when to go your way And by the way in case you never heard enough Of the words you long to hear Deep down in your soul In your darkest hour In the freezing cold Well I know now who you are You’re a shooting star And you shine (3 times) So bright
Mike Atkins
2009-09-04
Michael Atkins

Story

As the rest of "...a walking shadow" deals with the loss of others, this song deals with our own demise.
Mike Atkins
2009-09-19
Michael Atkins

Story

This song is presented in the form of a disturbing dream in which there are two main characters, a father and son. At the beginning of the song the father awakes to find himself in the afterlife. not knowing exactly where he is, he then decides to walk until he finds himself at the ocean. He swims and swims across what is an immense body of water, not really having direction, but having a need to find out where he is. Along the way he comes face to face with his son, who only sees him in the form of a dream. They circle around each other not really realizing who the other one is, until the last second when a voice calls the father home, and the son is left alone. The son keeps swimming there for a little while in his dream waiting to see if his father will return, and when he doesn't the son returns to the shore. It's only then that we see that the ocean that the father and son were swimming in was an ocean of tears cried by the son over the loss of his father. I wrote this song during a long commute between Little Rock, AR, and Nashville, TN. The idea actually came from a line in the first song on "shadow", "Hold My Breath". I wanted to expound on the idea of grief being like an unsettled ocean that we are adrift on when we lose someone.
Michael Atkins
2009-09-04
Michael Atkins

Story

When one of your parents passes away, you wonder if you said everything you needed to say to them. You wonder if you were a good son or daughter, even if they weren't a great parent. But in the end you realize that they are in you. And you realize you wouldn't be who you are if they weren't.

Lyrics

What was I to You? When I look back on my life Seems you were hardly there Too busy to notice me Maybe to high to care Well I don’t even know If I ever loved you so I never heard you say Son, don’t walk away Chorus: What was I to you? Was I a burden or a dream come true When you first laid eyes on me What did you see Will I ever know the truth Of what was inside of you You were a living ghost to me So what was I to you? I remember the day The last time I saw your face Before you went away On your trip to outer space You let me go so easy You didn’t put up a fight I think you and I We both died that night I’m more like you than I want to be I never knew how much of you was inside me
Michael Atkins
2009-09-04
Michael Atkins

Story

This is a song about the truths I've come to learn in adulthood. You cannot turn back the clock, and trying to hold on to your youth is like chasing the moon. You can run and run, but you'll never catch it. We are supposed to grow old. Mainly so we can give perspective and wisdom to the generations following in our footsteps, if they listen that is. I actually wrote this song in 1996 and did some demos of it and then put it away for a long time. When I was in the writing process, I happened to be listening to some old recordings and found that this song fit perfectly into what I was writing about at the moment. The string section was performed by my good friend Antonio Marin. He is a classically trained violinist from Spain. His contribution made the song come to life. Thank you Anto.

Lyrics

Chasing The Moon So many years go by Before we stop and take a look around Seems like this life just drags on And sometimes happiness can never be found We search for the answers in our past Pent up like prisoners in walls of glass This life is over way too soon And here we are chasing the moon We all look up one day To see our youth fading away And we push and kick and scream To make all those lines go away And it’s a losing fight But it’s one that we battle with all of our might This life is over way to soon But here we are chasing the moon Won’t you break through those walls of glass? Stop holding on to the past Throw off your chains Let somebody love away your pain Don’t you push and kick and scream The lines will tell you what they mean Somewhere down the road Someday when we’re old You know it’s not so bad after all It’s all right, it’s okay We’ll all have the answers someday To everything we look for now It’s all going to work out somehow It’s all going to work out somehow This life is over way too soon So don’t you go chasing the moon
Mike Atkins
0000-00-00
Michael Atkins

Story

In 2005 my good friend and keyboardist for Leon Russell, Brian Lee, took me into the studio for the first real version of 'Hold My Breath". I hated to let it go, but a computer hard drive crash prevented us from editing the raw tracks for the final mix and the song had to be re-recorded. Here it is in it's entirety. Thanks to Brian Lee and all the musicians that performed on this version of the song.
Mike Atkins
2010-03-11
Michael Atkins

Story

This instrumental piano piece was originally titled "The Resolution" and was to be a musical interlude between two different sections of "shadow". After some debate, I decided that it was just too much music, and didn't really fit over-all with the rest of the album. I heard it the other day and figured it was too nice to just sit and never be heard. So here it is. Notice at the end the rain sound. That is actual Washington state rain that I recorded when I had my studio there by just sticking a mic out the door.